my life

it is mid evening, my day has been packed... and there is still more to come! i went running this morning with my "semi-boyfriend" max. it was gorgeous out. sunny, beautiful, not a cloud in the sky. after the run, i showered and bolted to Walnut Street where i did an informal fashion show to promote a local store. tonight i have a formal dance, im wearing a marc by marc jacobs dress. it is magenta, backless, low cut in front... i love marc.

last night (friday) i smoked for the first time in a while, and what a trip it was. i had the craziest images flashing in my mind. it made no sense when i tried to verbalize it. anyways i would think of the most random images and memories that i ever experienced. it brought back memories from when i was 5 coloring at this little table i had in my old appartment, i remembered the pattern of my purple and plad pleated skirt (i was a fashion vixion even then). i felt like i was in hawaii on my porch at the condo that we always stay at in maui. i felt like i was rolling along the waves of the bed. i thought of all these cartoon patterns in my mind, then linked them to some sort of pattern i had seen before, or a real event that i experienced in my past. there was much more, but i dont even remember it fluidly.. i was in a different state of mind and body. i felt my fingers clench, my feet tapped uncontrolably to the beat of the "nova-like" music i was listening to. when i was kissing my boy, i felt as if i wasnt kissing him, but random boys i once kissed in the past (or ever thought about kissing.. as if it was real) i dont know. it was a strangeeeee thing. i would never get addicted to this, it was just an expiramental trip for me. its funny though, in indiana, everyone on my floor thinks i am a stoner, maybe its the peace sign neclace im always wearing, or my vintagey style that no one else comes close to, or my music, that no one has ever heard of.. oh well, i love being different. i get noticed. and admired. i am not the college kid who wears sweatpants and a t shirt everyday, nor will i ever be. everyday is a new day to expirament with fashion and makeup, and i never get sick of it. i love dressing up for class, it adds confidence to each step.

also, for those of you who think indiana is not hip, guess again.. MisShapes played in Indianapolis on thursday night. it is so cobra for the midwest... i know! i couldnt make it because i had no transportation.. fuck that. but it shows that we do get good shit out here!

its ok, im going to new york this thursday (3/29) and going to the block party concert(maybe) but for sure im going to...
03/31/2007 10:00 PM - Misshapes Bloc Party After Party
Don Hills 541 Greenwich, New York, New York

its gonna be sick. i have to go get ready for my formal, but i will update later on my NY trip! so excited to be back home (well future home)... my heart has always been in ny